Actress Keira Knightley has revealed that she was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) after suffering a mental breakdown aged just 22, admitting she found leaving the house a constant battle.
In an interview with The Hollywood Reporter's 'Awards Chatter' podcast, the 33-year-old opened up about growing up as a child star and learning how to cope with increased media interest in her personal life.
'It was big money to get pictures of women falling apart,' she said of the paparazzi's focus on photographing women reacting annoyed or upset at being followed by the press.
'Suddenly there was a level of violence, it felt, in the air.
'I think I've always had a "f*ck-you" button, and it was so obvious that they wanted me to fall, and I had such, like, a "I'm not gonna give you what you want." So there was a sense of battle every day leaving the house,' she explained.
Despite raving reviews about her performances, the star also admitted that her confidence took a huge blow when she realised several critics focussed more on her looks than acting skills.
'I was aware that I didn't know what I was doing, you know? I didn't know my trade, I didn't know my craft. I knew that there was something that worked sometimes, but I didn't know how to capture that,' she said.
'You're getting all these nominations for all of these things, but press-wise, when I'm going into interviews, people are still saying, "Everybody thinks you're sh*t," or focusing on your looks, or focusing on what's wrong with you.'
As a result, the British star said she struggle to come with the overwhelming demands of fame at such a young age - she was just 17-years-old when she filmed the first Pirates of the Caribbean film - and suffered a mental breakdown which culminated in panic attacks and a PTSD diagnosis.
'I did have a mental breakdown at 22, so I did take a year off there and was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder because of all of that stuff,' she said.
The star eventually sought help with a therapist and underwent hypnotherapy ahead of for her 2008 BAFTAs red carpet appearance, where she was nominated for Atonement, to ensure she wouldn't suffer a panic attack.
'I went deep into therapy and all of that, and she [the therapist] said, "It's amazing — I normally come in here and have people that think people are talking about them and they think that they're being followed, but actually they're not. You're the first person that actually that is happening to!"'
After minor roles on television, Knightley's first breakout role was in the 2002 hit film, Bend It Like Beckham, as a teenager.
She then went onto critical acclaim for projects such as the Pirates of the Caribbean franchise, Love Actually, and the Imitation Game.
Following her latest role in her upcoming film, Colette, the star says she's had the time to take a break and focus on what she loves about her job.
'I learned my trade. I did it very publicly, but I have learned my trade, and technically, whatever you need me to do, I can deliver it,' she said. 'I'm in a good place where I feel pretty confident about what I can do.'
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